.. dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today

i’m going to be a crazy single dog lady for the rest of my life. i think i’ve wasted my time with enough men. tired of being let down.

.. fuuuckkkkkkkkkk

lately, things have been getting pretty rough. my uncle’s disease has slightly increased, and it’s taking a toll on all of us. we had a benefit golf outing for him yesterday. it was a great turn out. it’s amazing to see all the support my uncle and my family have. i wish my dad would have more faith than what he does though. my uncle and him are like best friends. i don’t know what they’d do without each other. yesterday everyone saw the hurt in my dad’s heart. it makes my heart hurt ten times worse .. if he only knew that. you can’t talk about any bad situation with him though. he doesn’t know how to handle it. it breaks my heart. i know God has a plan. i know he’s not purposely hurting my family. everything happens for a reason. when times get tough the best people to turn to is family. i believe in miracles, and i think with every bad situation that anyone has to face, there is always something good along the way. but do i wish things were different? of course i do. no body should have to go through what my uncle is going through. in turn, this should bring my family closer together, whether or not that will happen, i don’t know. i sure hope so though. this situation in my life has made me realize that life really is short, anything can happen to anyone at anytime and sometimes life sucks, but you have to keep trucking. you can’t live life so negatively all the time because there are people out there (like my uncle) who have it way worse than us. life is precious & needs to be lived to the fullest, no matter what.

.. cause in the end, you can’t fight fate .. <3

(via geegrama)


really tired of all this bad news lately. & this shitty mood i’ve been in. OH, and my “boyfriend” who likes to appear when he wants to. if that even makes sense. hah, completely. over. it.

i can’t believe spring semester is starting tomorrow. my christmas break flew by, but it was full of great memories made with great people. even though i didn’t get to see a few people i would have liked to, it’s ok. everyone’s lives are crazy busy anymore. i can’t wait to see what this new year has in store for me. hopefully i’ll finally find the boy of my dreams. ;) .. but for real. 

all i want for Christmas is a real genuine guy, not some idiot who can’t even support himself. i’ve wasted enough time with someone like that. all i can say is, lesson learned. :)